I can't wait to have our apartment so I can have my own space and be the hermit I am. Being around everyone I often forget...that's not to say that my attitude changes, merely that I become a reservoir of this insanity, these thin lines the decent part of the world wouldn't dare cross or even dream to think of.
Ever ask yourself why people commit heinous crimes and atrocities and how they could have made it okay in their own sick way? That maybe that rationalization is a part of us and we all do it, we just don't get held responsible for it because it often doesn't lead to the attention of the authorities and others like the acts of a serial killer or a bomber.
We're all crazy, sick, and twisted. There's a show on T.V. now called "My Strange Addiction." Often when I see people witness these shows and addictions the first words out of their mouth are, "Why would they do that?! Who eats toilet paper and couch cushion?" I urge you to think about the things you do in private or when no one is looking and then ask yourself if those addictions people have REALLY sound that crazy. Why do they do it? For the same reason you drink when you get home, smoke, or take a hot shower. For the same reason you dedicate your life to football and getting that next big project at work. Everything and anything can become an obsession, maybe some are more odd than others but the emotion behind them are the same. We're creatures of habit and we like to have control in a place where there are always questions and almost never answers...at least not ones we would bet our lives on.
I'm proposing a challenge to you, think about all of the things you do when you get frustrated, all of those dirty little "What ifs" and all of the questions you've proposed to yourself that go against society and what is considered respectable and good behavior. I want you to think about those things, those things you do in private. Think about them and ask what good comes from those things being shared, or even just the realization that you're not the only one. We all have to have a line we walk or we would all snap, but it's important to be conscious of those things...just something to think about, a little of our own insanity.
